A Gift from God

     A gift from God is special; it is unique; undefinable. Sometimes they come more than most, other times they come very few. However, when they do come, it is a feeling that is truly incredible. A gift from God has no description. Even the word perfect cannot seem to describe such a thing. It is overwhelming to have yet something you feel as if you cannot get enough of. A gift from God can be small or large and is wrapped within His love. You open it gently and over a long course of time. For it is only through patience that it can be receive. Once you have opened it and obtained it you are truly speechless. You can find no words to describe how thankful or how joyous you are and you can only seem to release two words from your lips, "thank you." They seem to be far from enough so you begin to repeat them over and over as if that will help the lack of meaning. In a way it does, though you still feel like there is more to say. As if there are words to describe how you feel that have yet to be invented. You have no way of describing the great-fullness that has over come your body. You fall to your knees and as tears of joy and truth fall from your cheek you whisper the words thank you once more. Your heart feels full and your soul begins to sing with in you, "God is great." This is what a gift from God feels like. They are rare, for most, they come without warning, which is indeed the best way, and they are the best things a person can receive while on this earth. We are not deserving of them, nor are we able to ever give something so powerful back in return. But that is not the point. God gives them because He knows we love that feeling, because He knows we are thankful, because He knows that when we are to our knees sobbing with joy and crying out thank you, that we mean it. Most of all, He gives them to us because He loves us, and it's a time where we can snap back to the reality of it that we in return love Him, almost more than we can know. And within that moment we realize our love for Him, it is that moment that God, too, loves with His whole heart.

An Example

Matthew 12:33
- "Either make the tree good, and his fruit good; or else make the tree corrupt, and his fruit corrupt: for the tree is known by his fruit."
 
     The decisions I make are crucial. They define who I am for they are all that people see. A person may only know me based on the choices I make and the behavior I embrace. Being a follower of The Lord means I must be and example. My choices must be wise, my decisions must be just, and my behavior must be respectable. However, I can not be wise, just, or respectable without asking God for each. It is only He that can make me a worthy example and it is I who must be willing to be one. Though being an example is indeed of importance it is of greater importance to remember I am no better than any other. I am only being an example for The Lord so others may too see my joy and happiness from God and in return choose to be an example as well. If the followers of God do not act like followers then what will make non followers want to change? It should not only be our job but our passion to lead others to Christ. For with out Christ people will fall, and who are we to keep them from the bridge?

I Forgot

I forgot to remember,
that you know better,
   and it's I who must trust in you.
I'm deaf to what I hear,
And I'm far from the near,
   But it's you who will show what is true.
I do not see,
what is shown to me,
   But you help me from being blind.
You pick up the groun',
So I can't fall down,
   And to me you are so kind.
I'm cold when it's warm,
As my heart is torn,
   For I hate to make you sad.
For I succeed at failing,
As I continue sinning,
   Yet you never seem to get mad.
I shouldn't have,
What you gave,
   And yet you still made it mine.
You are so great,
There's no debate,
   And your love is truly divine.

He Will Always Be There

"One step at a time," He said to me.
"Steady and slow," He said is the key.
"Take my hand," He then explained.
"And follow my way," He proclaimed.
"I'll keep you safe," He comfortably said.
"Just follow the path that I have led."
I questioned with fear,
"What if you are not near?"
He laughed and replied, "I will always be here."

When it is Time

"So I say to you, ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and it will be opened to you." Luke 11:9

- I feel so lost at times. I ask for help, I seek guidance, and I knock at His door. I don't hear an answer, I don't see my path and the door seems to be locked. Yet then I remember God knows better. I will be given when it is time to receive, I will fine when it is time to be found, and I will enter when it is time to come in.

His Comforting Voice

"Stop the tears my child."
'I can't help but cry.'
"Your feelings aren't so mild?"
'Lord I feel as if I die.'
"What's the cause of weeping?"
'I don't know what you want.'
"This Stops you from sleeping?"
'Yes, I feel as if you taunt.'
"What ever do you mean?"
'Lord, I stay aware and keen.
I ask you what you need,
Yet your map I can not read.
I want a path to follow,
You say you'll light my way.
Yet my path feels awfully hollow,
And all I do is stay.
I feel as if I'm stuck,
I can not seem to go.
I have no king of luck.
What you want, I do not know.'
"Child, you tell me you are lost,
And can not find your way.
You'll give at any cost.
No matter what you'll pay.
You just want my lead,
And indeed you'll follow.
But what is it that you need?
In pity you seem to wallow.
So stop the tears I say,
And listen to me now.
Go to seep and lay,
And dream of all the how"
I fell asleep that night,
Not knowing what I'll see.
I dreamt of all the right,
And what was going to be.
Not too deep in thought,
But enough to understand.
In that dream God taught,
And took me by the hand.
He simply said, "Dear child,
I truly have a plan.
My thoughts are not too wild,
And I know where you stand.
You stay still in place,
For its what I need from you.
You'll start to move in pace,
When my needs from you are through.
You are meant to help me here,
Where you feel so stuck.
But the next step is near,
I'll save you from the muck.
There is no need to fear,
But patient you must be.
I will always be right here,
And I'll show you what to see."
When I awoke from such a sleep I began to pray.
I did not weep I only spoke to softly simply say,
'I am so sorry lord of mine,
I doubted what you know.
I'll take your path and walk the line,
no matter the speed I go.'
I said amen and went my way,
In knowing God is here
He plans my path, and my day
And is always near.

My Life Path

    There is a path. It is the path of my life. It is a path The Lord is laying down for me brick by brick and I will follow it step by step. I will not hesitate or question its direction. It will be a dark and unknowing path but the lantern unto me feet will guide my way. The path will have its steep hills and its uncomforting drops.  At times it can get rough, yet others it will be smooth. Never the less, I know The Lord will never put me in harm’s way. My path will be safe. I will be faced with temptation as my path splits between Gods will and my own. I must ignore this temptation in knowing that my own path will have no lit lantern or Gods guiding compass.  If I do fall victim of this temptation I must ask for forgiveness and guidance. In doing so The Lord will forgive and guide me back to the path of riotousness. The path I am meant to live. My life.  For no matter how far astray I go or alone I feel The Lord will always hear my cry.

Worry List

     1 Peter 5:7-  "Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you." 

     Though there is no need I still, on behalf of being the human I am, worry. It isn't necessary to have the concerns I do. In all reality it shows my complete lack of faith and acknowledges my disregard to the promises God makes to his people. He explains that if we give our worries to him we will no longer need to think upon them. Even then I am awake in bed only to think of the concerns of the day yet to come. I ignore the day I was given. My worries fog my sense of understanding and clarity of my thoughts. It's as if they consume my mind creating virtually no room for outside ponders. I do not think back on moments that could make me smiles. I am not thankful I was given another day on this earth. I am thankful I made it through the day. It's as if the  days I live are achievements not gifts. Yet, is this the correct way to be thanking The Lord? I've just recently come to the conclusion if no. I take each day for granted because of the worries I have tomorrow. However, if I give God my worries then tomorrow will not be a day I try to make through. It will be a day I try to make last. I guess the point I'm trying to make here is, lay down your worries before The Lord for they are much too heavy to bear. And he, being the God he is, will pick them up.

Building a Life

   
Nehemiah 2:20 - "... the God of heaven, He will prosper us; therefore we his servants will arise and build;"

    The building blocks of my life are laid down before me. With the wisdom and strength of The Lord I shall build. I shall build on a strong foundation of His love and protection. I shall follow the directions He has given me and put each block in place one by one based on His timing. I will not skip a step or forget a brick; I will not be distracted or discouraged. Because the life I am building is not for myself. No. It is for Him. My Lord, my Father, my Creator, my God.

    When I reach a place in which I am stuck I shall patiently wait for his guidance. When I begin to loose direction I will pray for a lantern to guide my way. When a brick brakes I shall not cry, I will pray for understanding. When supplies is low I shall not fret, I know He will convey.

    The blue prints to my life were created by the ultimate architect. There is no reason to question his choices or change his plans. He created this world and all that is in it. His work is truly magnificent.  It would be foolish to think I could do better.

    So I shall indeed build. I will build my life day by day with the trust that one day when I am finish I will be able to step back and say, "Oh Lord, look to the life you helped me create. Look at what I have built for you with what you gave me. I pray it is good in your eyes because to me it was a gift and joy to build and without you it would not have succeeded."